Once upon a fairytale

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Photographs by Annie Leibovitz
Celebrity Disney Dream Portraits

The Three Ghosts
Jack Black, Will Ferrell, Jason Segel

Evil Queen & The Magic Mirror
Alec Baldwin & Olivia Wilde

Captain Hook
Russell Brand

Merida from Brave
Jessica Chastain

Rapunzel
Taylor Swift

Ursula – The Little Mermaid
Queen Latifa

The Frog Prince
Jessica Hudson

Pocahontas
Jessica Biel

Snow White
Rachel Weiss

Photo’s via My Modern Met

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“C” is for Conference: PantheaCon 2014

Oh PantheaCon, how I love you, let me count the ways.

If you haven’t yet attended PantheaCon, let me urge you to do so right away! Move heaven and earth if you have to but please join us.

Living in the Bay Area for seven years, I kept hearing through various circles about the annual gathering of Pagans known as PantheaCon (PCon). Every year, thousands of my kin descend upon the DoubleTree hotel in San Jose, CA. There, we meet new friends, network with old ones, expose ourselves to traditions and techniques outside of our personal paradigms and participate together in some of the most intense spiritual rituals. As with most things, you will benefit in proportion to what you put into it, but there is generally something there for everyone. According to the presenters:

We are a conference for Pagans, Heathens, Indigenous Non-European and many of diverse beliefs that occurs annually over President’s Day weekend. Well over 2000 people attend more than 200 presentations that range from rituals to workshops and from classes to concerts.

While I could go into great detail about the Con as a whole, I would like to share my personal experiences from the latest incarnation of this amazing event.

You may remember that I posted previously about the death of my spiritual teacher, Eddy Gutiérrez, aka Hyperion, which occurred this past January. Since then, my fellow Initiates in the Unnamed Path have been holding space for each other on a daily basis in an online presence via Facebook. Not all of us were able to attend the conference this year, but for those who could, PCon provided us with an in-person opportunity to share our collective grief and plan for the future of our tradition.

For the past two years, Eddy was approved by PCon’s Programming Committee to present rituals from our Path. This year was to be a return of our highly successful Circle of Bones, a spirit contact circle. Check out the link for more about our sacred holidays. With Eddy’s passing, the community banded together and decided instead to hold a memorial and Circle of Light, a ritual in which Initiates offer energy healing, one of the four parts of our path, to the community. Many, who were unable to attend the funeral services, stood up and offered words of tribute to a man who’s work touched their hearts.

Memories were shared and many tears flowed. However, I was most humbled by how my fellow Initiates stepped up to the challenge of leading ritual space in Eddy’s absence. Everyone contributed to the work, but I am especially grateful to David S. who came up with the ritual’s framework, one that needed few tweaks. Participants later shared with me about the power of seeing all of us perform our circle casting in unison. I feel pretty sure that we did Eddy proud.

This year, PCon was much more about fellowship than ever before. Due to our various locations across the country, it is difficult to have all the Brothers together in one place. The Con provided the perfect backdrop for our continued grief, and many other traditions expressed their deep sorrow over the loss of such a powerful voice in our community. Indeed, I and my fellow Brothers felt very held by the community at large. We began  dialogues with other traditions to find out how we can support each other. To T. Thorn Coyle, Storm Faerywolf, Orion Foxwood, Christopher Penczak and many others, we are forever grateful.

Among the myriad happenings, one other stood out in stark relief: Taking of the Veil, a ritual led by the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence. According to their website, the Sisters “use humor and irreverent wit to expose the forces of bigotry, complacency and guilt that chain the human spirit.” While I have seen firsthand the generosity of these men and women, who work tirelessly to enrich the LGBTQ community, I had not yet been fortunate enough to witness to power of their Priesthood. They may be known at large as nuns or Sisters, but these individuals are deeply in touch with their Inner Power, and I could only marvel at the power and majesty that was revealed.  I am in debt to Sisters Krissy Fiction and Dirrtie San Chez for their puissance.

Finally, I must take a moment to honor my new Mom, Vicky G. Vicky is Eddy’s mother and she has embraced me and my fellow Initiates as her own sons. She attended PCon this year for the first time, after acquiescing to Eddy’s repeated requests. I know it was a bittersweet time for her, but like everything in life, she jumped in and allowed the spirit to move her with abandon. It was truly an honor to have her witness rites of the Unnamed Path, the legacy left behind by Eddy.

This year was a first for me, as I let go of the need to attend a session during each time slot. More important was the time that I spent in the company of like-minded, yet fully individual souls who are pursuing their own unique paths to Spirit. Namaste my Brothers and Sisters.

Blessings

“D” is for Dancing (Put on your Boogie Shoes)

I choose to write this week about Dancing. Now you might wonder what this has to do with shamanism, but it is a tried and true technique for accessing inner power and for reaching the shamanic worlds.

I’ve always enjoyed music: I played musical instruments in school and I taught myself to sing. Both pursuits bring me a great deal of joy, but especially singing because I feel I am creating an energetic vibration with no props, just me. However, my love for music took an incredible turn when I turned 21. I walked into my first my gay bar and as they say, “the rest is history.” Talk about a rite of passage! There on the bar, just inside the entrance, was a vision of manhood, dancing his ass off to excellent music. I remember thinking, “I have arrived.”

There were of course many “firsts” that night, but the biggest takeaway, one that still resonates at a high level, is moving my body. The more tribal the beat, the better. This may sound a little crazy but it was as if my body knew what to do on an instinctual level. Granted, I already had an outstanding sense of rhythm, but even back then, I understood that I could enter a state of altered consciousness just by letting my Self go, allowing the DJ to take me on journey into my inner landscape. I would close my eyes and dance for hours, transported to a magical world that I could feel was shared by everyone around me. So what is it about body movement that causes such a shift?

Dancing has been a path to the sacred since before the dim and misty. From the earliest times, cultures the world over recognized the special power that dance holds over our bodies. There’s something primal that gets activated through dance. My brain shuts down and the active chatter of ordinary consciousness flows away, allowing me to connect deeply with my divine spark. When I touch that, I touch the Gods.

Dance is a very potent and expressive Art. Through ritual dance, the observer can catch a glimpse of the natural world and states of being. The performer learns how to tap into the very essence of animals, plants, stars, birth and death.

Because our minds can become more still, dancing allows us to feel our emotions in a much deeper way. Joy, Hatred, Ecstasy and Despair are given creative expression in a ritualized context, which can free us from the old fears such as “Am I good enough?”. The wise men and women of old recognized this unique characteristic, this ability to embody something outside of ourselves, and used it to heal our broken spirits. They would ask:

When did you stop dancing? When did you stop singing? When did you stop being enchanted by stories? When did you stop finding comfort in the sweet territory of silence? ~Gabrielle Roth

I have both laughed and cried on the dance floor, swept up by the music until the raw feelings just come pouring out. Cher sings in The Music’s No Good Without You, “I pray that a DJ will lift my Heart.” Indeed. I recently chatted with a DJ from Los Angeles, Ryan Jones, who said that he was once told to “find the God in your work.” He understands his role in helping us to pray while celebrating the joys of being alive. Check out his Soundcloud to listen to what I mean.

My favorite poem by Jewel Mathieson said it best:

WE have come to be danced
not the nice invisible, self conscious shuffle
but the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance
the strip us from our casings, return our wings
sharpen our claws & tongues dance
the shed dead cells and slip into
the luminous skin of love dance

Through dance, we can access our most hidden aspects, the parts of us which do not always wish to come to light. For those who follow the Unnamed Path, we know that this “shadow” work, which I will touch upon more in a future post, is essential to to finding our true power. At my Initiation, I used dance as the vehicle to open me up to deep possessory work, allowing my patron deity to “ride” me into ecstasy. Easily the most advanced technique that we work with, possession would not have been possible if I had not been able to shake things loose through dance. I simply could not wrap my brain around such a working, but my body knew instinctively what to do.

You don’t have to aspire to a possessory experience to reap the shamanic benefits of dancing. The next time you are feeling called to expand your mind via meditation or journeying, try warming up first with some dancing. Put on some good music and let your body move! Alternatively, find out if a Sunday T-Dance is still happening in your area. If I happen to see you out on the dance floor, I’ll not only be gyrating like crazy, I’ll also be channeling energy to the crowd, a fun exercise that Eddy taught me. Together, we can let our hair down and do that “shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance”. No one else has to know. But we will.

Blessings

Pagan Blog Project – Drums

Pagan Blog Project – Drums.

“D” is for Deathwalking

“What is Deathwalking?”, you might ask. Well, I’m going to guess that you’ve heard of something like it before: necromancy. Now, before you run away screaming, let me explain.

Specifically, Deathwalking is the branch of my spiritual tradition, the Unnamed Path, which deals with spirits of the dead. While we do use particular magical techniques to assist us in communication, I like the way our founder once put it:

Deathwalking…is more of a lifestyle than a magical art.

Especially when I consider the relationships that I maintain with my Ancestors, both of blood and spirit, I have to agree. Yes, eventually, practitioners of our path learn to speak with spirits on behalf of friends and loved ones, acting as messengers. Yes, we can assist a person with the process of crossing over as a midwife to the dying. However, I think the most significant aspect that sets our way apart from necromancy–and who doesn’t automatically hear “necrophilia” in the back of the mind?–is that we develop real relationships with certain spirits.

I count myself lucky indeed that my maternal Grandmother is among the spirits who surround and speak to me, assisting in all aspects of my shamanic work. Her presence is so cherished, so real, it’s as though she’s just a phone call away. Except now, we just speak directly to each other when we want. Any time.

Other spirits, one whom I met while still living in Austin, are also old friends. One of them literally has my back, as he guards the energy point on my body that is most attuned to the energy of spirits. My Spirit Guardian anchors me on journeys to the Spirit World and protects me from harmful energies.

The point is, we don’t just summon up a spirit to “divine” things, and certainly not just for fun. We commune with them, and they are as real to us any friend in the material world. But they are also teachers. When I have questions about working with plants, I speak specifically with one spirit. She worked with plants so much while alive that she feels almost like a plant spirit herself. These spirits teach us things that no one else can, so you know I pay attention when they speak to me!

The focal point of my work with them is my Ancestor altar, which just recently found a permanent location in my home. Previously, I had set up this special altar only when I needed to do specific work with a spirit. After Eddy’s death, this altar has become more important than ever in my continuing work.

My Ancestor altar

That’s my beloved Teacher Eddy there in a place of prominence. My partner’s grandparents are there too. Don’t they deserve to be treated to rum, chocolate and crystalized ginger? I think so. I will continue to add to this as the year goes by; so many loved ones to commemorate. If you would like to see some of our work in action, and will be at #PantheaCon 2014, be sure to join me and the Brothers of the Unnamed Path as we pay tribute to Eddy at 7:00pm on Saturday.

Well, that’s it for now. More about Deathwalking can be heard in Eddy’s own words here. Be sure to check out his other podcasts on related subjects like Spirit Contact work.

Blessings

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“A” is for Sacred Art

“Painting” by Alex Grey

Artist John A. Kohan once wrote:

Sacred Art has been pushed to the margins of contemporary culture.

He goes on to say that he is on a journey to recover his “lost way of looking.” Reading this, I found myself wondering: is he right? At first, my response was an emphatic “No way! There’s plenty of sacred art out there. I saw so much at Burning Man, for crying out loud!” But as I continued to chew on it, I thought about how much goes unnoticed about how beautiful the natural world is. If that’s true, can a culture driven by greed and fear even imagine what constitutes as sacred art?

From our earliest beginnings, people felt driven to express something greater than themselves through art. Cave paintings, pottery and sculpture were only some of the tools used to give form to the numinous. One might say that to the ancients, there was no separation of the sacred from art. Many cultures also embraced the techniques of body modification, especially tattooing. The body itself became the “canvas” on which to shape deeply held spiritual beliefs. A living, breathing testament to the power of the sacred in our lives.

Then there’s art which stands the test of time: architecture. Pyramids from various cultures still capture our imaginations today. Even Notre Dame, while still quite young in comparison, recently celebrated 850 years of existence. Could the original builders even conceive that their works would live on and become inspiration for countless generations?

For me, art has been about the ability to look at something and see more than what is really there. Anyone else remember that line from the movie Xanadu? No?! An elusive quality that only my eyes, filtered through my memories and my subconscious, can render. My partner and I both love to visit and stare out at the ocean, but I know that we both see different things. Not to say that one is better than the other, just different. I believe he once told me that he connects to the memories, both beautiful and horrific, of living so long in San Francisco. For him, the ocean reminds him about how far he has come, and how many we lost along the way. I see Life, the cradle from whence we all sprang. It surrounds us, holds us close and connects us beyond boundaries of space and time.

As usual, it comes down to intention. What does the artist see? What qualities in the subject are yearning for expression? What does the viewer see, for that is just as important as the artist’s vision. I would consider art developed for advertising as radically different from that which can depict Raven as the messenger of the Void. Sure, they can both evoke something within me, but one goes much deeper than the other. I will sit with the latter example longer because I have much more to contemplate from a piece made with deeper intention. When intention is deep, so too is the wellspring of creativity. With the piece at the top of this post by Alex Grey, did you see a man standing in front of his canvas, contemplating the next stroke of the brush, or did you see a channel for the Godhead who is preparing to communicate a profound spiritual lesson on behalf of the Ancestors?

Perhaps Mr. Kohan is right about the margins. This isn’t exactly news to someone who is used to living on the fringe in any case. I do, however, choose to shift my perspective slightly. If sacred art is not currently held as a core value of contemporary culture, if it stands on the edges, it is protecting us like silent sentinels. If we intentionally choose to look away from the self-absorbed, “now trending” ideals of modern society, we will see the guardians that have been placed on the outer edges. They will call to us, desiring to open to us as gateways to transcend ourselves and the ennui.